If you read my newsletter last week, you’ll know I am not particularly confident about speaking in public, stemming from some bad experiences as a child.
Yet, I know that creating more video and audio(and probably real-live public speaking) is actually a huge step on my soul path. It’s all about stretching that comfort zone to breaking point!
Part of my Soul Path Tribe membership site includes a monthly guided meditation to download and listen to at leisure. I’m no stranger at creating meditations and I took a diploma course in hypnosis, but it’s been a while since I used these skills.
While I hadn’t been dreading recording the MP3, I hadn’t been jumping up and down for joy either.
I did my usual procrastination tricks of shuffling papers and getting distracted on nothing in particular on the internet. Eventually, I removed myself from the computer and sat with pen and paper to write the guided meditation script.
First part accomplished. Next part the recording.
It was then I noticed I didn’t feel very well. My head began to ache and I was snuffly.
I’d caught a cold, which obviously meant the delay of recording because who wants to listen to sniffs when they’re trying to be guided on a fantastic journey (in this case, a visit to an ancestral sacred hall).
Hmmmm….. sudden cold? Not wanting to record an MP3? Could it be a co-incidence or self-sabotage?
Realising it could just be me causing my symptoms so I would postpone the voice work for another day, didn’t make me feel better. In fact, it made my head pound a little harder.
So what to do?
Give in to aches or try to see if it was just my sub-conscious helping me avoid something I didn’t really want to do?
I took a couple of ibuprofen tablets, bought some Lockets, and dotted my head with Tiger Balm.
It was few hours later when I had the chance to record and my cold was gone. The headache and the snuffles had disappeared.
Self-sabotage was banished (at least for that day).
You have to be aware of subtle self-sabotage. It’s not as obvious as the negative self-talker but it’s just as destructive.
Have you fallen victim of self-sabotage? How do you combat your own self-sabotage or don’t you realise until it’s too late?
P.S. If you’d like to join the Soul Path Tribe, I would love to see you there! (It’s only $9.97 a month).
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